Do What You Have To Do
Well, while my last post was a bit dark and I did appreciate the feedback as it was soul-bareing, this entry is more even keeled.
I've decided not to play her games and feel bad about myself. I know what kind of person I am. And what's most important to me...my kids.
Knowing that children growing up without their father in their daily lives have all sorts of documented shortcomings, I'll do without for their sake. And hey, with luck, I might actually get "lucky" and be treated to sex once a month.
The hurt and longing are pretty much over. I've been without intimacy and tenderness for so long that it's just gone. Maybe when we're in our 60's and the kids are leaving for careers, we can reconnect in some tender way.
But I guess I'll always watch fading sunsets and think about loss and emptiness. Pretty sad for something that should be beautiful, inspiring, and a symbol of hope.
In times of duress, humans persevere by doing what they have to do.
posted by ZGD63 @ 7:17 PM
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Seriously? You think your children are better off living with two angry, unhappy, sullen people than they would be if their parents found people they could be content with and show them how a loving relationship is supposed to look? I grew up with a father who was NEVER there emotionally for my mom because he just gave up. My parents were both angry and unhappy with eachother. They decided to divorce when I was 16 and by then all I knew about relationships was unhappiness and selfish anger. Some how I got lucky and married a man who loves me so much he's had the patience to stay with me as I figure things out. It's been hard for me to figure out how to have a happy, content relationship because I had terrible role models for that. Not even my grandparents were good role models for this. I'm not saying leaving your wife is the right thing to do, but staying with her for the sake of your children is so wrong. If you stay with her do it for reasons that will NOT make your children feel the weight of the responsibility of your sacrifice for them.
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